I haven't posted in quite some time and thought today would be a perfect day to catch up.
Since my last post, God has turned my life COMPLETELY upside down… and it's been GREAT! I don't think I could have even imagined how wonderful life can be when you have an intimate relationship with Christ. To be honest, I didn't even think you could have a real relationship with Christ. I mean, c'mon, He's not even tangible or someone you can see. Ohhh… was I wrong. When you experience this intimate relationship with Him, it feels so much more real than anything you could ever experience with someone who is tangible!
I'm constantly thanking God for all the things He has done in my life, even the negative and bad experiences.
"How can you be thankful for the bad experiences??"
Your probably asking yourself that question and I definitely at one point asked myself that very same question. I can now answer it and I will answer it for you too!
Lets first start with just a little quick overview of the bad experiences I faced in my past…
- Sexually abused when I was 6
- Bullied and called "cow" because I was overweight
- Depression/suicidal thoughts
- Eating Disorder
- Father passed away when I was 18
- Dependence on medication and alcohol to numb my pain
- Unhealthy relationships with guys
- Attempted suicide 3 times. 3rd attempt was a very close call
I was extremely angry at God for many years because of these experiences. All I could think was that if God was a "good God" as so many people said, then why would He have allowed these things to happen??
Let me tell you something, God is sovereign! He can use ANYTHING, even the bad, for His glory and to defeat the enemy. That is exactly what He did with my life. I didn't think there was any hope for me, but the beginning of this year, after I finally gave up and gave God control of my entire life, I was rescued!
I'm healing from these wounds because I am now sharing with others the hope I have and how there is hope for them as well.
But in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect. - 1 Peter 3:15
The enemy had a very good grasp over my life for many years, yet through confession, repentance, and the body of Christ, I have found healing and restoration. Now, I can freely share my story with countless girls who have experienced similar things and show them how amazing God is and how it is ONLY because of Him that my life has changed and that I no longer hold on to bitterness and anger.
The verse that resounds in my head is 2 Corinthians 5:17, which says:
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!
Amen to that! How can I not be thankful for everything in my life, including the bad, when even the bad can be used to glorify God and shine His light unto this dark world! The enemy no longer has a hold of me! Don't let the enemy keep you bondage to your past or sins, there is freedom in Christ!
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